journal
Thursday, February 28, 2013, 4:18 am
#331
亲爱的树洞 我只是怀旧
Forgot to post in January! Turned 19~ Suddenly realize that's so close to an age starting with 2 and at the stage of life where I'm supposed to really think and consider what I wanna do for the rest of my life? Haha I always feel that I couldn't fully experience the fact that my passion lies in my job. For example, I feel passion/ interested in graphic designing but the thought of going for more job interviews for such related jobs or internships just scare me a lot. Haha part of my personality la, I hate judgement on such abstract/ artistic things.
So contrasting right, like what I will pursue in life for career would be maths/ science based and what I am passionate about in life is all these design and chinese stuff. Balance. All the more, the same reason apply, why I am just unable to continue doing CLEP, I don't like people judging words and expressions!
Also, went on blogskins.com to see the four skins I have made when I'm younger... Very different, haha. Shows how much I've grown seriously, began to clean up my designs and aiming for a neat touch instead of abstract collages. It's quite weird actually, I can visualize layouts, get inspirations from looking at other graphics but still, I could not draw.
Sometime nowadays I really feel as though I'm living 古人的生活
古时 琴伴君 酒韵诗 触景挥笔
Play guzheng, read poems, books and design images, hahah I quite like such peaceful life to be honest. And choose someone to look up upon, strengthens my life.
Looking at my sister's bad temper now makes me wonder whether I'm this irritating back in schooling days. Somehow the slow pace of life now tempers my temper, I rarely 动怒 now despite my sister's endless questions and offending tone -.- Haha now I understand why sometimes my parents also gets a bit :S last time.
乐嘉's 性格色彩 book is quite accurate heh. I fit into majority of the descriptions, then again, hahah we're all colourful people and we turn to different colours for different things and people. Ah I want to go taiwan and buy all his books back!!
Persistence.
我要相信 让它变成信念
原来走到这边 透过眼神就能理解
或许是迷迷糊糊来到这一天 或是跌跌撞撞拾起了尊严
维护着的是一份期盼 以及对未来的向往
离开这一天前 一定要感谢
一路上蹒跚在身边的那一些慰藉
还有眼前拥抱着你的亲切
让时间诉说 友谊永存的理念
:)