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Saturday, April 30, 2011, 6:47 am
#320Even if wishing is a waste of time,
Even if I never crossed your mind.
I read through my (long dead) tagboard just now. It started of with me wanting to delete a spam tag haha. Ohman so many years passed since the first tag in the archive and even though I never had the habit of replying tags, I do remember the context/ feeling behind each tag! Maybe it's good that it's dead, because every single tag which I treasure so far will forever be there. :)
And it's been forever since I change any details under my profile. It still has the nice little icon which I made 2 years ago haha. I used to be so good/ efficient at creating loads and loads of 100x100pixels designs whereas now I'm just happy with my monthly update of luozhixiang. Anyway, the main point is, I grow to understand why I never wanted to edit the details. Not because of laziness? Maybe subconsciously I just want everything to stay like what's in the sidebar, still in ny, still in nygz, still in 3/401. Still go for GCP. Still wear sleeveless shirts. Still walking into a CLASSROOM every morning. Still passes by the cleaner pond. Still attempting to climb the clock tower...
How can my simple, self-satisfactory life suddenly takes such a drastic turn! To become complicated, doubtful, curious? So funny to say that I'm still growing up from all these transitions because that sound so secondary school.
Waiting. Preparation. Anticipation. Gave me hope. I hope it continues doing so. And something in me tells me not to give up on 11:11. No matter how fate has disappoint me each time.
At times, I really wonder what do I want in life?
或许我最想要的
只是一个可以懂得我的你
一个不会逃脱的你
一边在泪流, 一边紧抱我
小声地说, 多么爱我
I really grow to appreciate the strength of faith.
Even if you cannot hear my voice,
I'll be right beside you dear.
:)
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Finally did up another blogskin after (really) almost 4 years.
And this skin alone takes me months since I began working on it.
Conceptualize/ get inspiration to format to consolidate to simplify to coding to trial and error to specific styles...
It's such a long process that it even makes me wonder am I getting too old for doing all these things?
Looking back, I used to make skins like one per day in secondary one to per week or month in secondary two/ three.
Then, somehow, all my design interest or passion goes into fan-art or icons/ banners based.
I guess I have this inherent mentality that any layout based design will drain me out, and it still does.
Then again, it may not be that I'm getting too old for this, but instead
I've raised my expectations? Too perfectionist in other words.
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Anyhow, I'm very satisfied I guess!
The only pure long holidays I would have and I did not let it to go to waste!
With the years to come, I really don't think I would have the time and peaceful mind to revisit and revamp the whole layout design once more.
So, something to take with me to university and eventually work life next time :)
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有时候回忆很可怕,它让你看到你的曾经所以对未来有梦
只愿在慌乱之中,留下这一片虚拟的记忆和画面的潇洒
这一路的赞赏和欣慰,永远不会忘
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