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Tuesday, January 31, 2012, 6:15 am
#324Serendipity.
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Such a lovely month! Haha partly because I turned 18 (sigh). I suddenly feel so old and everything, why is life passing so fast my mind still stays in 2010 I still can't seem to pull myself away from there!! Bring me back :/
I think I sort of got some kind of recognition for what I am holding on to? Like, how after one year, some people really change so much while others can still remind me why I hold on to the past so tightly until it hurts sometimes.
I think when you build on a thought for too long, like developing all the events faithfully in your head, it actually sort of ironically make your thought or dream more fragile? More susceptible to reality haha! Hai I guess it's not anguish afterall, just the strength one needs to piece the thought together again. Maybe you can build a thought such that you are deriving happiness from the thinking process but still aware of the fact that the thought remains as a thought and not what will happen.
I think I like thinking. And ever since I moved house, I lacked the silent time to think.
Lacked the time to really rationalize my thoughts and not let myself be so rash.
I want to try my best. But I don't know what is my best.
I want to stop trying also, but I don't know how to give up.
Studying/ doing work sort of saturate your mind to dispel all the random thoughts floating around...
There's really many things that I can't do.
Like forgetting.
At least I figured out roles and positions which is a good thing since I am obviously not that stupid to be indifferent towards words and actions.
Argh I also want to be less sensitive. But my heart will never allow my head to succeed hoho!
其实我也不需要海市蜃楼 我只奢求一种微笑着的眼神
因为每一次面对 我都是心花怒放地在奉承 守候
我不够果断 所以孤单
林宥嘉唱地对...
我也只是满怀期待一句"我不愿让你一个人"
Meeting you is my serendipity
mischellaneous
archives
Aftermath
Finally did up another blogskin after (really) almost 4 years.
And this skin alone takes me months since I began working on it.
Conceptualize/ get inspiration to format to consolidate to simplify to coding to trial and error to specific styles...
It's such a long process that it even makes me wonder am I getting too old for doing all these things?
Looking back, I used to make skins like one per day in secondary one to per week or month in secondary two/ three.
Then, somehow, all my design interest or passion goes into fan-art or icons/ banners based.
I guess I have this inherent mentality that any layout based design will drain me out, and it still does.
Then again, it may not be that I'm getting too old for this, but instead
I've raised my expectations? Too perfectionist in other words.
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Anyhow, I'm very satisfied I guess!
The only pure long holidays I would have and I did not let it to go to waste!
With the years to come, I really don't think I would have the time and peaceful mind to revisit and revamp the whole layout design once more.
So, something to take with me to university and eventually work life next time :)
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有时候回忆很可怕,它让你看到你的曾经所以对未来有梦
只愿在慌乱之中,留下这一片虚拟的记忆和画面的潇洒
这一路的赞赏和欣慰,永远不会忘
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