journal
Monday, March 30, 2009, 2:21 am
#294I'm a hazard to myself;
Basically things are really not what they seem to be. Firstly, holidays don't feel like holidays; SMP shows improvement but time is still tight; survived through first MRP meeting but research seems vague; Got the edited chinese proposal but giving it a start is not easy.
I don't know whether I could survive this. Perhaps I could use the time posting her to do one more Maths question, try to understand one more bio fact, try to memorise one more chemical formula, try to study one more reason for conflict in Sri Lanka, learn one more chinese term, find out one more definition to an english word, draw another graph for physics kinematics. There are so much to do, yet starting almost killed me.
Yes, this is going to be hard. It's again time to pick up those fragments and piece them up together so that I could lead a complete life.
On a lighter note, people are nicer than ever!(:
至少还有你们:D
Friday, March 06, 2009, 4:09 am
#293blanks, images, memories flashed pass when the peaceful seas broke out into sorrowful cries, splashing their tears against the rough sand, and the abrasion washed off the footsteps left on the ground.I have been thinking a lot these few days, maybe it's the cool land breeze that night which sparked off my racing mind, or is it the life temporary without school work burden and commitments. Recalling my life, people who left footprints in mine, people who are just passerby.
Through obs, I keep getting the frequent occurrence of a sudden rush of emotions, and this in turn evolved into water droplets which by accident took shelter in my eyes. It's always hard to eat this emotion up, making sure it could be digested (it's not as easy as digestive biscuit). Be it cries of excitement, accomplishment, realisation, sorrow, or regret, it's still an experience which made impact.
the song which best describes my feelings/reflections through out the whole camp:
崇拜it's really great and amazing and touching at the same time when you finally find with a song with lyrics describing the whole predicament, melody which touches the soul. :D
I'm glad that some still stay by my side, while I felt that I have lost control over some. The grateful thing is, our basic relationship is still there and I hope we could still smile at each other in the future and always.
你的姿态,你的期待,我存在在你的存在;你以为爱,就是被爱,你挥霍了我的崇拜
风筝有风,海豚游海,我存在在我的存在;所以明白,所以离开,所以不再为爱而爱my goal is to
自己存在在你之外
活着,还是为了开心:D