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Saturday, June 30, 2012, 8:52 am
#327
Believe.
Sometimes talking to myself help me sort out thoughts and feelings quite well. Hai sometimes I really need to be more rational than emotional. So, live with your emotions and feelings are only meant for blessed people who are not dependent on other emotionally... Why is life like that?
Listening to linyoujia's songs make me feel so desensitized, so void of feelings. Sigh, I don't think the world is that heartless and sad right :/
I know I should be thankful for many things so I will just cherish and not question anymore! I'm just scared that time passes too fast and these moments will eventually be grouped under memories. I don't want to start something that is meant to end, and I trust that I didn't.
Hope time reassures me.
Not stressed yet, just doing more studying and work than usual. I hope my pace isn't too bad... don't really want to burn out, or even try to. However hard I try to ignore, my head is still listening to my heart! Which may be good to some extent.
Okay I feel that my social circle is spiraling inwards (HAHA physics)
Just tired of getting to know people, building relationships and trust, because we are not who we are anymore, right? Even thought 18 may sounds young... but all of us have our past. Especially, when I hold on so tightly to secondary school friends, which I learn to truly believe from the bottom of my heart, that we will never forget each other and we do not need to have any facades in front of each other :)
Actually, I slowly spread out my trust to people that I love dearly/ respect/ care about.
Because that may be the only thing I am capable of giving , and the only worthy thing, haha?
所以我的诉说不可以是埋怨 因为我又有什么不满足
你问我这种追逐会不会很浪费 很孤独
我问你我又有什么理由放逐 值得浪费精神的幸福
很多时候都在做梦 希望忘了一切的时间可以解释清楚
这到底是我一个人走过的路途 还是也有你的脚步
我甚至不想看出 这到底是不是个错误
因为信任的基础 是你说的话再离谱
我都会给予祝福
Jiayou.
mischellaneous
archives
Aftermath
Finally did up another blogskin after (really) almost 4 years.
And this skin alone takes me months since I began working on it.
Conceptualize/ get inspiration to format to consolidate to simplify to coding to trial and error to specific styles...
It's such a long process that it even makes me wonder am I getting too old for doing all these things?
Looking back, I used to make skins like one per day in secondary one to per week or month in secondary two/ three.
Then, somehow, all my design interest or passion goes into fan-art or icons/ banners based.
I guess I have this inherent mentality that any layout based design will drain me out, and it still does.
Then again, it may not be that I'm getting too old for this, but instead
I've raised my expectations? Too perfectionist in other words.
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Anyhow, I'm very satisfied I guess!
The only pure long holidays I would have and I did not let it to go to waste!
With the years to come, I really don't think I would have the time and peaceful mind to revisit and revamp the whole layout design once more.
So, something to take with me to university and eventually work life next time :)
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有时候回忆很可怕,它让你看到你的曾经所以对未来有梦
只愿在慌乱之中,留下这一片虚拟的记忆和画面的潇洒
这一路的赞赏和欣慰,永远不会忘
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