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Sunday, October 31, 2010, 6:44 am
#315Happy Halloween!
It suddenly occurs to me so badly that, I don't want to leave NY :( Maybe I'm not ready to but thinking about farewell these days make me very D: and it is as though I suddenly lose the power and reason to smile. Even though we should always look forward to the future (Like luozhixiang in the icon!), but what if the view isn't great. Maybe I'm just worrying too much, as usual.
Results were alright, or rather great I suppose, didn't expect myself to be able to perform like this given everything. It is the papers checking which make me realize that, I have really grown up. The fact that results don't really matter as much anymore is a sign? Like how in sec2 I may dwell on and on about that few marks which were lost but now I know how to congratulate myself to earn the marks one by one reflected on my paper. Taking pride? I'm quite relieved to feel that there are things which are more important and worth my care and concern beyond just marks.
And I still don't know my JC subject combinations. Peer pressure + assumptions + insecurities + questions = D: I have very mixed feelings about this, sigh, it is really very sian to memorize biology facts and chionging during exam for the essays part, but I'm not even sure whether my physics can make it and I have passion for it. I took so long to study and understand physics. Another thing is accompany, which I really really cannot figure out why.
While doing farewell gifts, it is like all the memories start replaying in my head, paper cloud once asked me why I can remember experiences and memories with people so well, I also don't know. It is definitely not that I have good memory, if not I would not have tried so hard for exams, then I realize maybe it's because those are events which touch my heart in some way or another, that's why it stays in my head for so long... ...
有时候做到一半,眼泪就这样掉下来 :/
I'm too greedy sometimes, that's why I suddenly remember the most important lesson I have learnt.
不要分开, 还想继续爱
不要分开, 为何要分开!
"天空仍灿烂, 它爱着大海"
我是天空, 你可不可以是大海!
The only thing I could do now is, put my heart and soul into farewell gifts and hope that I can be remembered by people I dearly loved.
P.S. I, ANGEL OF LIMHUIHONG, HOPE THAT SHE WILL HAVE SUFFICIENT LUCK TO SURVIVE THROUGH "DUH" QUIZ TOMORROW! EVEN IF IT MEANS TAKING SOME OF MY LUCK AWAY :)