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Monday, July 30, 2007, 12:47 am
heartache!
ohh mann): i've been coughing for don't know HOW long.
2days? nopes;
FIVE FULL DAYS.
i think i'm getting sick of coughing. and i always cough at the wrong time):
sabbats!
erm yep. nothing much. except that sabbats create chances for you to spend more moenyD: but nevermind. don't overspend jiu can le(: sabbatting with jingying,joanne,xintong,rie throughout the whole thing is fun(: mr john tiong sounded sian, but i got listen okay!
while coughing!. like cough like crazy, first thing i did when i reach class is COUGH. urgh.
RAINBOWWS!!
okay obviously i don't know and forget the colours so i just put alot colours to represent it(:
interesting topic okay! it was just after i see shuhui's blog:D lols. and i'm the first person to sayy she is mature(: oh yay. honoured:D and I GOT THE PPT PIC(: eh i should ask for the whole thing. tsk tsk. damn. i forget): after i get the pic, i shall get
photoshop-active again(: wahahahas. the last skin was joanne's skin. which is damn long ago. lols. IM BACK(:
yay. now everybody is happy(:
i shall be happy too(:
5slack days.
what more to ask?
彩虹;七种颜色-带着大家的梦想美丽照亮了天空。
朋友;关怀无至-带给大家依赖的肩膀,照亮了你的人生。
家人;无尽信任-带给你最温暖的,完成了梦想。
use the hand to wipe away the tears;
use time to forget about sad things;
use memories to warm yourself;
and lastly,
use your
heart to feel for the others.
appreciate.
and ya'll know.
Saturday, July 28, 2007, 9:09 pm
heartache if you ask me.
some words won't just escape from your mouth
some feelings you do not want others to see
some momments you want to be alone
some momments reality simply just sucks
some times when you just break down
but who want others to see you cry?人总是说人是贪心的,
但人还是有感情,
因为有感情,我们都学会了关心。
there are thousand of people showing their care;love;
but sometimes the person is just not ready yet.
its not that the person dont care.
its not that the person don't appreciate.
it's just that the person needs time.
alone.
to think.
to sort out stuff.
to cool down.
shu hui's words are enlightening:
现实是残酷的;
但若不活在现实,更残酷。
some people happy some people sad.
to cry or laugh.
2 simple words but the emotions they contain totally differs.
search your heart and ask youself;
do you have those momments before?
you see your friends smile;
let it stay that way.
don't try to change the facts;
and don't imagine too much;
if you want them to stay the same.
that magical momment,
tears just drop.
not tears of joy;
nor is it sadness.
its the mixed feelings from the bottom of the heart;
and when both of them mix together, you will see smile while crying.
but i really want tongzhen to be happy and clara to get back to normal. i know nobody want people to see them being sad, but i just can't help it but think of it. emotions do you call that/
its yet another tragedy; just hope the effects are not the same.
yeah. we would never understand the feeling. lonely. disaapointment.
yuhui said:
we does not measure a man's sucess by how high he climbs, but by how far/fast he bounces back.
yes. standing up is the best solution.
no use crying over spilt milk.
when that crying momment is over.
just get on with life.
could you just get online. i got things to tell you
just sometimes knowing too much dosent benefit at all-it makes people more sad.
pity is not the word.
its
heartache.
, 5:50 am
the day you went away - m2m
fab song. don't know why. emotions.
i should be posting about ytd. but somehow. could not help myself to do it. i think i lost one overdues library book. they even mailed it to me. and i still have assignments and homework undone. somehow. i just want a break. shouldn't i? term 3 is so screwed.
And we were letting go of something special
Something we’ll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know(: new comm for guzheng today. was saddening to see the ppt slides. and to listen to the 我们的故事i am so touched. somehow. maybe coz the song seriously reminds me of pri sch. which is=.=
Why do we never know what we’ve got ’til it’s gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I’ve been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went awaybyebye secfours comm;
i'm sure we will all rmb you de(:
-yuhui for her firm
-shuhui for her blur
-pamelia for her pro
-OTHERS FOR THEIR NICE(:
再见不是永远!
must say hi to me when see me okay!:D
Tuesday, July 24, 2007, 3:13 am
yes i know what i want.
i asked myself this question and now i know what i wanted.
i just want to ace eoys coz i dont know how would i be without itno more slacking. not much msning. not much blogging. not much computer.不尝试又怎能知道自己不行?
, 2:31 am
50BUCKS HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHY HALLOWS
i'm getting it. oh yay. 50bucks. my dadddy is so generous this time:D wahaha. so rare of him. must snatch opportunity okay:D my deathly hallows. say hellos to me tmr:D
HOME ECONS TODAY :D
oh im happy(: harry potter and muffins. nothing to complain about le lah:D
we baked muffins. lols. i dont know i can bake so well:D its amazing(: i love my muffins. i promised to give jingying one but she left before i knew it. then so in the end i gave the people in classroom. only victoria and zhiyun only lah. and my muffin rawks okay! mine is so nice. even victroia admit mine is better then hers. wahaha. -ego!- muffin muffin muffin!!!! i shall do some at home. its super interesting:D i love home econs. aside from sewing and the tehory and coursework part.
HOME ECONS RAWKS:D
chinese test was =.=
i thinki screwed. oh yay. whatever. mugging for wen hua later. oh yayy. like so pro huh. i haven even try to revise yet. ): sci quiz tmr somemore. and some random sci worksheet. OMG. I LEFT MY TEXTBOOK IN SCH): how to do. oh shit. whatever. find my way through bah(:
and
and
and
i screwed history><
but
i aced maths:D
don't know what i should feel. happiness? or agony? mixed i guess(: okay update more tmr. when i have my harry potter. eh wait. dont know if i would make myself leave the harry potter book.
I LOVE MY DADDY!! <3 <3 50BUCKS OKAY! :D :D :D :D
and after it i shall pass it to jiayin(: im nice. then victoria or smth bah:D
虽然始终没有勇气、但自己也多了一份自信。
努力会得到成功
但不知道问题
就永远都不会成功。
我明白了!
maybe i should thank history for that:D
people lets jiayou for eoys(: i don't know how to survive but yep. we still have to continue.
只要有决心,铁棒也能磨成针!
Monday, July 23, 2007, 2:10 am
maybe i still don't have the guts.
or maybe i just want to play safe.
geog test today was =.= 30minutes for the 4pg paper like omg? i was like chionging all the way and i almost just finish in time, around 5minutes earlier. cannot stand it. my hand was aching like siao. especially the vein there(: and i think joanne's words are still so nice and neat:D she pro person! when i finish my geog, and i look up, i saw xin tong idling and stoning there. AGAIN. she did that every tests. how can she READ QN SO FAST THINK SO FAST WRITE SO FAST. these days i seriously think she is not human at all. i think she shld be some random mutant in xmen on this world, or a robot from I ROBOT or some AI from AI, or CARA from the fps story. xin tong is amazing and she wanna change sch(:
oh yah.
THANK YOU CHENGXIN FOR YOUR CHOCOLATES:D
yum.yum.yum.yum.
hahas. see, JOANNE AND I LOVE YOU TO BITS LAH(:
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE CHOC COZ YOU MAKE OUR RECESS(: yay.
CHENGXIN RAWKS:D
hahas. my exciting week ahead:D
monday-geog testtuesday-chi test
wednesday-maths competition[pon chi and pe] and wen hua test
thursday-guzheng
friday-NJC concert
hahas. i think fri will somehow be a nice day because.
i going kap with sheena and xin tong till 3plus
going to coro with sheena[i pulling her with me] to buy deathly hallows [getting the 50bucks from my dadddddyyy(:]
go back to school and try to follow yuhui to go VCH coz i no idea where it is.
oh and i come up with the limmerick. i told alot people but always forget to blog. well here it is:
i ask victoria where is victoria concert hall
but victoria tell me she dont know where is victoria concert hall
so vicious victoria suggests that victoria concert hall is somewhere near victoria street
but the truth is that victoria concert hall is not near victoria street
so victous victoria is lying about that fact that victoria concert hall is near victoria street
so victoria concert hall is not neat victoria street
and now im back to not knowing where is victoria concert hall.
omg. so lame=.=
pretty lot lame things today but im lazy to blog about it. so byies people.
oh JOJO-too little too late is superb(: im abit siao.
adapted from pamelia and tongzhenOKAY I KNOW IM LAME PEOPLE=.=
Sunday, July 22, 2007, 4:18 am
when people say its sunday blues
lets put it as sunday
colourfulsomehow i don't know what happen. everybody somehow turned all emo suddenly. yeah. emo. like not those kind of down feeling. but exrtremely down. eveyrhting seems bad and stressful and perrmisstic about life. maybe thats not exactly the feelings. im not even sure if i have been emo before. sad yes. emo nopes. or maybe i dont know?
yeah. complaining about school life. i guess all of this sudden change in atmosphere was somehow related to the course of the fact that geog test is tmr. first period. how a fantastic start for a day. so maybe coz of that, everybody went crazy. oh how typical. okay i dont know what rubbish im talking right now. i still rmb last week's cme, we are supposed to write down whats the thing you regretted doing. some wrote coming to nanyang. oh wells=.=
anyway! geog tmr! and i sort of finished my mugging. water is okay le. only i dont know if i still remember my land facts. hahas. okay i just went out awhile to recap. but need look through worksheets again later boo):
and i still think zack&cody rawks. somehow! hahas. i was laughing like hell:D
currently listening to: ashlee simpson - boyfriend
Saturday, July 21, 2007, 5:21 am
tiring day again.
CCA!
i took the bus thr. and i was planning to mug abit of geog on bus but after the first slide which is the title: MAN AND ITS IMPACT on blah blah, i feel asleep=.= oh yes? and i think the bus is somehow fast, i reach nanyang at 8.15(: and when i step into nanyang, i see ALOT parents LOITERING around and walking around like some sian people. its when my dad told me today;s DSA and i know why. LOLS?
prac was okay. yijun coz late need sing mai tang yuan can! wah so "can"): very bad orh. so i shall force myself wake up eveyrtime and never be late. and then laoshi went missing for a long time so i began mugging for geog, then is hengchun! so i went back to the sec ones room where they playing BENGAWSOLO! whatever the spelling. and was super slow and was busy counting the N2 with jiayun:D tehe(: then slack then lunch!
CIP!
everybody is boarding 174, so we monkey see monkey do, board it also. okay i know its ridiculus. then we went some random place and i saw ying ying on 174! and we went pizza hut. we are like so in a rush we are pratically rushing the auntie. oh so paiseh. and we turns out to be early can. coz others are even later in queueing and buying and stuff. and so. erm strt lah. was super tiring walking with sheena and zhen ping and li yue.l and sheena is SO lucky to have people donate 50 and 10 dollars to her. hmph): then we walk. we have a low tide time where almost nobody donated. but hey! at the last hour or smth. we were like standing thr collecting moeny and stickers are so running out fasst. yays:D and the tin becomes so heavy i think my hand also "suan".
then went home with sheena. i was aching everywhere lah. planning to eat dinner at mac but kill the thought coz need walkk. okay im lazy. so i forced myself to old chang kee and buy smth to eat b4 going home for dinner oh yeah. and im finally here blogging about my day. okay nothing can stop me. im going to mug. byies. i need to mug. (:
Friday, July 20, 2007, 7:27 am
tiring day.
JUDO!
i think judo is kinda a cool sport. hahas. sound super random. but thats super violent. cannot stand it eh. i see the people lieing on the floor seriously xin1 tong4. thought that it was some wasting time stuff at first. i ate up all the food b4 the competitions. like as usual? then its like so un-high till the momment the competitions started and i began highing all over with no particular reason then then, i nvr see xin tong so high man. she is pratically:
NANYANG STAND UP. NANYANG GO. GO!!!
hahas. imagine. un high person like xin tong going like this and screaming! oh how i never know. then hahas. i shall mention a few matches which is so cool coz i think they are either bad or good. hahas whatever;
INCIDENT ONE; NANYANG VS RGS CDIV
its like the first few minutes, rg is like pratically throwing that nanyang girl off her feet so many times and that rg person is pratically addicted to the nanayang person's feet and keeep holding on to it and smelling it? *ahem* due to the fact that rg is so devoted to nanyang's feet, then the nanayng person's pants tore. like =.= then the nanyang went to change her pants. but when she returns, i think she's pissed and slammed and slapped and flipped that rg person on the floor and won. like WOW. dont make nanyang people angry!
INCIDENT TWO; NANYANG VS RGS CDIV
hahas. so its liek rg send out this person which is BIG and this nanyang perosn is SMALL and nanyang ended up thrown anyhow by the rg person. but then miracle! the nanyang person manage to keep the rg down for so long and we won. BLEHX. so cannot kan bu qi small size de!
INCIDENT THREE; HCJC VS RJC
so RJC send out this person who is an indian and she is 100+ kg pls. some more is on singapore's judo team. i wonder how the person will die under her can >< ouch! then the hcjc that girl was like so small size compared to her and she is crushed several times. aiyoh. i seriously very XIN TONG eh. feel like crying when they lost lah. but that person fought till the last minute. but whatever. i fought back the urge. and nvm. its the sportsmanship:D
i seirously think judo is cool. but wells, took up too much violence and heartbreaking mommenrts. could not stand it. heart attack all the way):
oh wells. tmr is cca and cip. i think cca will be slack coz they prac 90th will be in sec one room:D or whatever room. then cip i want do with sheena. stuck with her bah! okay better go get some slp and cure my running nose. byie:D
Wednesday, July 18, 2007, 2:53 am
shawn.
luna.
found the meaning to life:D two persons who make your day so perfect although the homework loads of homework and projects to be done. thank you(: shawn's voice is superb. and i love luna's dreamy voice. the movie was okay bah i think. but i love the settings. its so grand. and as usual, i love the ENDLESS FOOD in the movie:D and i seriously love luna. they gotta give her a better and bigger role in teh next movie:D i like the way she thinks, acts. omg. LUNA IS JUST SO COOL. yeah:D
i thought i could post ytd. turn out that my eyes were alr half closed after finish chionging home econs proj ytd. ohh man. hated it lah. and i think still got timeline haven do finish. which is like so shitty. have to do it later. then there's maths test tmr on a mysterious period and it is gonna be hard coz there is factorisation so lets all jiayou people:D i think i mixed up my algebra concepts. hiash. can't help it now. There's ratio, rate and proportion. i think i will be dead for rate. i just couldnt think in straight and correct way for speed. something is just so wrong. but i just don't know whato.O
oh yes. so ytd[tuesday] should be a bad day for alot people i guess. alot people complain to me.
but.
hey. its good you get to complain to somebody.
coz when you are down or upset of you feel like the world is falling down, you hope anotehr person would feel the same way or like just lend a listening/hearing ear. so um yup.
希望你们都继续开心。
不要emo了,不健康。
什么事情,说出来,会好一些。
yeah. so while i was "councelling" priscilla, some random phrase come to my mind and i think it was super meaningful and almost consider myself as a genius for a MINUTE. hahas:D
眼泪掉落后,要把它擦干,学着坚强。
要给自己休息的机会。
因为停下来休息不是要放弃;
而是为了走更长远的路。
so people dont EVER EVER EVER give up kays. those bad times, we will pass them like other day!
like how i survived ytd.
i think its a miracle.
当想要放弃时,告诉自己再坚持一次。
Sunday, July 15, 2007, 4:17 am
slack day.
i act like i am so busy pls. and im slacking throughou actl. so here's how i spend my day. it gonna be random. oh andi agree that OK buiscuit is nice coz im munching on them now. oh i love it too:D
hahas okay. post err. so lets see.
morning i woke up and feeling so bored. coz it was another day and woke up at 8.45 due to the pressure my family giving me, they are like, WHAT BREAKFAST TO EAT? then i have to wake up lah! but i stayed until 11.30 the previous night lah=.= so im sleepy yeah... then erm yup. i hog over the tv for so long then 9.30 realise so chiong maths. so i finished maths revision ws thatm. then i use the remaing time for SM1 i was reading the qn and it was o.O i dont know what they asking! so um. i just do it and forget about the results-.-
then was lunch and i slacked through the afternoon by editing and editing and editing my LA fps and read through alot people's blog archives, hahas. talking about that, i think looking through archives can reassure you and realise how much people grow with their languages and various areas. oh . my blog too:D then i finish up my essay and printed out and i help joanne too:D she finally changed blogskin. why! coz i helped her=.=
oh. zack and cody never fails to amuse me. i am always left laughing like hell and i would seriously wow. okay i know its somehow retarded but i love them:D you can be crying the first minute and you would laugh at them the next momment. hahas. i love them.
so much for all my emo posts. its over(:
well. tmr's sch.
but hey.
tmr's harry potter.
IM OWNING IT(:
Saturday, July 14, 2007, 8:31 am
double posted-i just feel like posting coz nobody is chatting with me and nobody is tagging my blog and i think my blog is dying so the moral of story is dont post too much but nevermind, i shall post double times:D
im supposed to chiong my LA FPS till 12midnight but i realise i cant think of anything at this tie of the day so i think i better go right into bed and get some slp and i shall wake up tmr feeling fresh and watched some tv and grab some breakfast. i think i have to choose between 9 to 10 or 10 to 11. maybe both(: oh yeah. i got no time to waste now. i think term 3 is really hectic. and liek only a few weeks towards EOY. so i shall pledge after common tests this week i shall not slack anymore like past terms but jiayou for my EOY. i know i've been thinking abit far because im seriously need to work harded for my W580i<3 i think i gave up VAIO laptop. i wanted a tablet, but till now, i see no tablet from VAIO, but i love VAIO and sony too much le so i decided not to buy but concentrate everything on my new phone. oh dear. i really wish to get it. seriously.
tmr morning i shall finish up all my maths. finish maths before lunch or no lunch! i will surely work hard(: yay. eveyrbody good luck too. and afternoon shall go back and read grammer books on connectors for LA fps and maybe read thesarus too? oh im siao about LA. then aft prac guzheng and watch random shows. and then, afternoon also plan for zuo wen. then.. night shall slack it off. so tmr online time should be afternoon till night straight or late afternoon till night. depends on how fast i doing things and what im doing. i feel heng to completed at least 3 things today. tmr i will complete the other four, i shall request my mom to buy correction tape for me. i need correctiontapppeee)):
and i think maybe when you are bored, taiwanese shows r kinda nice. i watched 'engagement in love' ai qing jing ji yue just now. turns out to be an okay show. at least i donno anything that show also makes sense to me, kinda interesting actl, i was watching and slacked for one and a half hour while plucking some stirngs from my guzheng and i pratically PLUCKED coz the high 3 broke, and i was too lazy to flip my cupboard on where is that string and even to change in coz im lazy and it involved turning and turning and turning and im just so sian to do it yay thank you. so i keep eveyrhting and sit on sofa to watch tehe:D maybe i will catch it again next week. i like weekly shows. coz i only weekend free. uh-huh.
hahas. kay shall go slp now. i like dong jie stil:D faved song now. but didnt bother to change blog song. kay. shall stop typing=.=
, 5:03 am
冻结this song accompanied through ytd's long hours of maths. thank yews.
okay maybe im mental today coz i donno why the hell am i thanking a song. my eyes are so painful now. stared at computer to chiong chinese fps ppt. wah i do until i strted to hate designing can. imaine): i want die. and joanne changing her blogskin to teh skin i did. yay joanne.
i seriously feel my eyes closing.
so err. out of the 8 things i planned to do this weekend, apaprently i touched not much. so this weekend, i need to:
1)geog wb 2)maths revision ws 3) maths SM1 4)LA FPS
5)chi fps 6)fps 7)plan chi zuo wen 8)buy correction tape=.=
ytd as super tiring. today even more. i slept at 12 woke up at 6.50 and went cca which is tiring then went kfc with jh for lunch and chat alot(: caught up with her. and due to the fact that i sleep so little and stare so much at com.
now.
MY EYES TRUELY HURTS.
like shit, fps is killing me pls=.=
going off after i print out my maps for SM1=.=
like shit. my printer is dead a few dayys ago. frm history notes=.=
kil myself. the maths drove me nuts and i shant elaborate):
my right eye is really hurting! AWWD;
people would see me online till 11 or 12 today again): coz i chionging things. but i think after 8.30 to 10 or smth i wouldnt be in frnt of laptop coz i need rest. shall watch tv(: with loads of hw waiting for me.
我那时糊涂
不明白你为何哭后
知后觉以后 领悟
i'm sorry
冻结那一天
冻结初遇那一天
冻结那爱恋
冻结吻你那瞬间
if things would replay again, im sure i would be a better person(:
我若是疲倦
你的项链在我身边
发光在我胸前
你的项链在我身边
陪伴这我过每一天
thanks for everything you did, we would move on happily(:
你说话不爱说第二遍
但偏在情人节那一夜给我你心爱的项链
说了三次对我的爱恋
you have the bravery to admit; i
didnt have-
you have the power;
didnt have.
you told me its not true.
so i do have the bravery to admit;the power to do so.
you make me smile, you make me grow, you make me understand, whats that for-
JIAYOU加油!
Friday, July 13, 2007, 3:41 am
墙角那朵枯萎的玫瑰忘了为何要凋谢。hhas. i know all my posts title sounds emo but i'm not okay(: i would be totally stunned if you come up to me and tell me stop getting emo o.O hahas. okay crapps! i think i will double post today. see loh see loh(:
i shall just briefly talk about today. PCCG was okay with the ZHIYUN WENT TO THE TOILET COZ SHE DRANK TOO MUCH MILO joke which was interesting(: and maths was okay and my factorisation turns out to be okay. at least i didnt fail. and recess was slack with fps and i think im dead this weekend and im still slacking now. LA was amazingly interesting with the 'CARA' story and the AI movie watching. I was pestering joanne to tell me the ending but apparently, nobody who watched the movie remembered the ending which was o.O so im kept in suspense. hmmm. and next is sci. i suck at individual work luh): but time flies when its prac. so happy? and then slack in com lab and ict. yay. i slacked ict totally today. coz i finished my assignment like 2 days ago? hahas. m there like doing tutorials and giving up when people are thr, wah, chiong like hell. hahas. priviledge. i give up doing all my tutorials):
then KAP was fun and funny. ohh yeah. i finished my geog workbk which is so yay-ing. coz i still got mountains of homework to clear. especially FPS. we are the first group can. can kill msyelf lah. 8homeworks. INCLUDING PROJECTS. oh wells. shall just bear with it i guess. and btw,
WHO WANT GO WATCH HARRY POTTER. I THINK IT ENDS AT 18JULY. AND I WANT TO WATCH. SMS OR MSN ME IF YOU WANT GO TOO OKAY!(:(:
断了的琴弦弹奏着从前
一起走过的路线没有终点
昏黄的光线照射陈旧的水面
映出那朵玫瑰思念的画面
你走的那天我决定不掉泪
迎风撑着眼帘用力不眨眼
无尽的思念things may sound sad but maybe time seriously can heal everything and heal the scars caused.
不是每个人都那么勇敢。
但是一定要控制,不让眼泪流!
因为只要还有希望,就还能继续。手牵手,没什么不可能。
若你把手放了,才真的什么都没了。
不要放弃。
我可以的。重重困难都过了,这算得了什么?只要努力,或许一切会更好。永远都不会放弃。
a smile from you; make the happiness of two-
Thursday, July 12, 2007, 6:54 am
如果冷该怎么度过?sometimes people say so convincingly to you about something, but did you believe it at once? yeah and nope.
today was a crappy dayy? cca till 6. so errm yup. same old same. only i caught the earlier 174 bus home and yay. i reach home earlier and slacked. okay so i shall say i did smth today coz i completed my second draft of LA FPS. i pratically failed my first one. boo): and 1/4 highest is 45? *cough!* its like wth. and their class average is 40 can. walao lah. im not even near 35 pls=.= i just wanna scraps a 68% or smth. at least can pull up my whole year grade or im so gonna fail. boo): language arts agony. i dont like FPS. end-
hahas. maybe having mr makintosh as teacher was a kinda good thing? yeah. shall 珍惜him. like. only when he is speaking, sheena and xin tong very ): coz he spits? okay enough. hahas(: why am i feeling that im evil. and i finally completed my ict ytd! hahas i shall credit people.
The following people had provided me with pics at my wits end although i didnt use all but xie xie for all you efforts. thanks:D
victoria.jingying.tongzhen.
XIEXIE:D
so tmr ict i shall slack. blehs:P while peopel chionging i shall liek act sian. hahas:D im bad. booohooo): i shall do tutorials! wahaha. i think they are sort of like fun or something im weird. HARRY POTTER MOVIE OUT LE. i want watch. who want watch with me? zzz=.= so diao eh this qn. but nvm(:
不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
明明是想靠近却孤单到黎明
不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
那爱情的绮丽总是在孤单里再把我的最好的爱给你
sometimes we do things which are so not some sort of normal stuff. and sometimes you just dont know yourself. i dont know why. ive listen to this song for like my life, ever since this song was out, ive been listening to it. but never really understand it. oh wells. experience huh.
也许还是自己没勇气承认,自己败给了自己。
若没经过这风风雨雨,又怎能看到那彩虹。
其实,这些都是值得的。一次次的失败,证明了自己的决心。
有时不知道自己在想什么,但也不想知道。
我没有哭也没有笑因为这是梦明白为什么自己喜欢音乐,只有在乐曲和歌词中,才能找到自己,与自信。
答应我。
要快乐(:
Tuesday, July 10, 2007, 4:46 am
im siao-proven by tongzhen(: hahas go her blog okayy!! THAT SKIN WAS SUPER NICE.
and this is the skin i was trying to pursuade xin tong in choosing and the whole world go against it except me and aishyn! and now you see! i have the power to pursuade others to choose mine. wahaha. im the ultmiate winner(: mind my randomness.(:
yay. xin tong going with me to choral singing again tmr. jingying shld be going to, jingying, she nowhere to go also! hahas history test was so screwed. heck lah. forget it. nvm. i should just keep eveyrthing! wahaha. this term is so gonna suck. and the next week maths test and i stilll dont know my factorisation): xin tong didnt teach me! haahs. today was super fun and slack!
school was boring lah can. LA was in library hovering over the various laptops which is so cool okay! and ELAINE AND JUN JIE WAS OUT OF CSS. elaine! the power-vocal singer! how can she be out! damn damn damn. ohh mannn=.= nvm that. so i helped jingying edited her essay FPS. hahas. dont know why ms foo gave her so low. boo): xintong's one is PERFECT pls. i read and read and donno how to edit. and xin tong type damn fast she was typing her essay and all i heard is continuoust typings! haha:D m lame. hahas. and i think my FPS is siao lah. dont know what to do. shall just scream my head off. ROAR!
hahas then choral singing! was okay luh. only judges too err, ZHI JIE. like comments kinda hurtful lah! hahas okay nvm. tmr i shall go again. wahah. while helping xin tong do her art. i shall stop slacking after my post and do some "right" stuff. see what you define the meaning bah!
hahas then home econs free period. shit. i was supposed to email gong yuan the recipes. shit!!! then the chers day our task analysis and timeline done was LOW STANDRD. don worry. my home econs gonna scrape a C. im prepared. oh wells=/ damn. what does she expect when i also dont understand a thing she wanted us to do. and due next week? she dont know how much things we have meh. wth. my chinese FPS is also on standby. shall discuss do website or powerpoint(: and then tmr sure got some more FPS matters. and dont know if i can go choral. eh wiat. i promised xin tong. so i shall go. pon recess lah):
hahas. i was responsible of the songs choice on xin tong's blog. coz im pro(: hahas. okay nvm. im seriously retarded today(: hahas. okay shall go and reply tags to people! the free period we spent flooding xin tong's and my blog by talking when we cld talk to each other face to face=.= thats what makes the whole thing fun right! hahas(: okay byies ppl! shall chiong-ed my art CORRECTIONS. damn lah. homework is enough le lah. anti-art. boo):
Sunday, July 08, 2007, 5:08 am
突然累了原来别人说,完美的后面藏着痛苦。
是真的。
谁又知道名校背后的心酸。它没你想象中容易、轻松。看上去是完美的,藏在背后的,是一滴滴的眼泪。每天上学的目的,从来都不是什么要读书,为什么没人知道?大家能坚持下去,都是因为朋友在身旁。我不是在埋怨,只是在思考。
昨天的open house我不知道是什么感受。是喜是悲,我也不知道。看到juniors脸上的笑,快乐,决心,便把要说的话吞下了。也许不说是好的,有时不知未必是闭,而是一种福分。真的不想在他们的印象里改变什么。应该是舍不得,忍不下心来吧。
记得去年也是同样,好奇与期待。对每所名校的印象都是最好的。但事实果真是残酷巴,所有美丽的图片破碎了。但。
我不后悔。
虽然日子不好过,泪水也更容易掉落,但还是有足够的勇气把眼泪擦干,继续往前走。有时想想,若不来到这里,就见不到现在的朋友、学姐。也许生活会是空虚的,若没有经过考验,怎能看见彩虹!我会为我的彩虹而奋斗。生活再苦,都会度过。
我知道,在毕业那天,我还是会哭。在分离那天,我会哭。再说再见那一刻,我也会哭。
开始觉得心情低落,说完要说的话后,突然觉得自己拥有的实在是太多了。因一时的不开心,抹黑了我的拥有。人,要知足。人,要懂得珍惜。我懂了。
想了这么多。我真的明白了。
幸福快乐,一直在我的身边。
为什么总是让那几次情绪摧毁?
要开心不难。
我恢复了笑容。
我懂了。
真的懂了。
只是不想让你看到我的不开心。希望你还是知道我是快乐的。但我没欺骗自己。我是快乐的。只是遇到一些事,变得伤心罢了。眼泪更容易掉,人会变的坚强。我明白了。
, 12:20 am
random.i think i post alot. but this shall be a short and quick post! coz briefly, i have nothing to talk or say about. the funfair's gone and nth to talk about. i wanted to talk about smth regarding funfair, but simply that thing just slipped outta my mind. don't ask me why. my brain works differently(:
I WANT PHOTOHSOP CS3. ohh mann. hope i can geddit(: !!!!
oh yah. i did a new skin again(: my #8th skin(: tehe(: ohh man. although its retarded to say, but i seriously need to ask.
WHO WANT THE SKIN?!?!?!
rahhhhhhhhh. preview is here:
http://www.the-only-her.blogspot.com/ dont care the posts coz its my friend's. anybody interested pls leave a not at tagboard, or sms me or msn me. i shall give it to the person who ask for it or maybe i shall approach you and ask people and if they want i give them. wah. nobody chatting with me today when i doing skin): hiash. only xin tong. she alr has one. she shant be so greedy(:
but hey! my 8TH SKINN:D whee~~~
#1 tears.
my old skin!#2 temporary eden.
old skin#3 best friends.
current#4 just gotta try.
dedicated to jingying#5 stand beside me.
dedicated to xin tong#6 fly away.
dedicate to xin tong#7 chengxin rules.
dedicate to cheng xin#8 bye; its gone.
new!!!i didnt include noisy 3 coz i dont think that skin is nice. blehxP hahas. okay i better go off. half an hour more to slack. takkaires people!
Saturday, July 07, 2007, 2:14 am
i shall plan!back from open house. i think i shall summarise today too. and i think i will score damn well if it is to be counted in LA.here it goes:
tired.
(1 word)
Content: 12/12
thats the truthLanguage:7/8
minus one mrk coz i didnt put capital letter.Total: 19/20
if i ever could get such mark.ive gone through this week! which is hectic hectic. next week shall be hectic-er! i seriously need to plan if not i cannot survive..
MONDAY
-i shall stay at school to finish my homework! to donno what time lah. hope before 5.30pm reach home jiu enough(: mug history and factorisation):
TUESDAY
-my art=.= but some random 6b or 2b pencil, i forgot which one i lack, or maybe i have both? er. random.
WEDNESDAY
-finish my homework at school! and mug for geogetrical figures(:
THURSDAY
-CCA! i just need to finish up my hw, and sure got FPS=/ shall do and plan lah.
FRIDAY
-KAP with xin tong and jingying and xin tong will teach me factorisation(: and i shall mug for factorisation that day too(: finish up most homework(:
SATURDAY
-CCA! mug mug mug for algebra! the whole freaking thing!): finish all my homework
SUNDAY
-check on homework list and mug MATHS and chiong proj
people pls remind me of everything okay! if you see me slacking remind me:D i need reminders to keep awake! flag day soon(: rahh. i think huo ji is nice(: i shall prac it. bye people:D
Friday, July 06, 2007, 2:18 am
today was coooooool-hahas. today turn out to be quite okay:D which is a good thing? yay:D
hahas. was suupper
random today. for no reason. spastic-nesss. hahas, anw, err. i shall write a summary, think it wont be a good one, seeing that i have high possibility of failing my LA time trial which is so sucky. hiash so err.. yah.
everybody is so high today. i went to class and i saw YELLLLOOW:D yay. i love class teeXD super
striking which is just so cool(: STRIKING! then while they are getting high i chiong-ed finish FPS. which is like so
phew. i conclude i dislike FPS too >< then flag raising! JOANNE is awarded smth i think. C division thingy. yay:D and she's the only YELLOWY around:D tehhee. i said i love my class tee! hahas super striking! joanne say all her seniors interested in her shirt. YAY:D striking is good! and was like super warm there was complaining. then we spent one hour preparing, actl i practicaly slacked it through, coz er like, just try pasting some stuff, then like 9oclock got dumped with heaps and heaps of flyers to be given out. so go out and give!
i was practically pulling people. and practically broke=/ hahas. i promised alot people things ytd. and i got buy them! except for burgers prt was like too full aft drinking ice blended drink then just bought sausages. hahas:D conclusion: ice pops are okay, chicken seems nice:D ice blended drink rawks coz i was tired and thirsty, sausages is yay! coz i was hungry and tat person who serve me is super cool! she pro lah. 103 STALL RAWK:D hehe. i think the hashbrown was super nice! hahas. seaweed chicken too lah! but always out of stock=.= which is like OHH MAN? didnt eat much. jingying i bet she ate like dont know how much. missed going to haunted house with xin tong but nvm(: we shall go tgt next time!
hahas. give flyers. give and give and give. i dumped alot to seniors and 203. is coz we really really nobody to give to:D then aft tat must clear stock so try random give! aiyah. then slack around. hahas. we went the err... hairspraying there to give flyers coz jingying got 2 snrs thr and i got one and there'd sheena's sis. and it was super hrd time coz they r pulling us to have a streak done, and i was like. WAH. then jingying scared like hell. then in the end, i pull you you pull me... JINGYING DONE THE STREAK. i pay eh=.= wah. my pocket got one hole><> =.= hahas:D random random! so end up with
blueee/ i think its quite nice. makes jingying looks cooler. haha. she not gd lah. go eevrywhr also need buy things=.= brownie, milo, end up with one dollar>< and she bought HASHBROWN. haha. i bought $10 coupons but like 10.15 come so fast so i scram and gave jingying all my left coupon which got like
$4 pls=.= hahas. my pocket even more holes!
this post is long. im typing on. shou bu liao can dont read le!
the performance. hoho. was "screwed" everybody luan and luan and luan.
those not sure of the scores maybe will think is nice, but guzheng people practically sigh? okay nvm ah. and my feet pratically was super painful. b4 sprain, after wear court shoes until paiiin=.= okay nvm nvm. slacked in music room. and went back to class aft that. i seriously love my class tee. :D then went to hall which is super crowded then they announce random stuff that this year earn most? tehe. i got contribute:D okay lame=/ then haha. WE WON CLEANILESS AWARD. okay whatever the spelling. its super yay. hahas. prize is LOLIPOP:D
oh yah. there's these "ghosts" walking arnd the sch to publictise for haunted hse. creepy can. morning bright sunlight see these things. at first is i saw this "woman" hair so luan, holding on to a baby or smth, then walk in high heels, wearing black dress, he face was super
white and then her lips were super
red and i was freaked coz i though i really saw a ghost. haha. then victoria say smth lamer then me: 我以为她要去自杀. wahh=.= hahas. anw, jiayou for hui bao victoria:Dand then we walk, the stupid jingying ask me turn behind and the ghost stared at me. damn? i got freaked luh. and jingying laugh laugh laugh lah. wah=.= then xin tong and jingying and i was giving flyers, then we rlly no body give, so gave to one of the ghost. and we were laughing like crap and IM SURE THE GHOST LIKE LAUGH TOO!! she was like at first so serious holding on to pig's organs, then we give her flyer of hashbrown so cool then laugh lah. haha:D we were all laughing like crap, and we even went: MUST COME OUR STALL OKAY! YELLOW DE! we are inviting ghost. she nodded eh. ohh mann. creeeeeeeepppyyyyy=.=
things we need to do next yr if there's funfair and if there's haunted house:
1) stepped on the "ghosts" or hit them if they approach you
2) have a stack of flyers with you so you can throw and aim at them if they try attacking you
so the next batch of people could take it up and go our stall3) scream : COME TO
203 STALL ORH! [next yr if]
they will get freaked coz we shall scream louder than them:D4) freaked the ghosts out!
5) leave haunted house happily(:
okay end post le lah. was so crappy coz today was a crappy day:D and random(:
大家要快乐!
开心!
开心可以让人年轻几十岁!比garnier light or those skin products 还有效!
微笑smile(:
Tuesday, July 03, 2007, 6:48 am
每个人都有开心的理由,但不是每个人都紧记这个理由。提醒身边的人!每天都要过得开心!was super sian and tired today. shant elaborate. my posts are nothing man!
im juust still super tired,
and i dont know to survive term 3
oh shit.
next week history common test.
how?
if blogger can dont censor shit
coz its not a bad word
or i
believe so!
大家要开心!
Sunday, July 01, 2007, 8:32 pm
i felt screwed.yes.screwed.RAHHHHHH HHH HHHHH!!!!为什么!不再有开心的笑脸了。
为什么!什么都在我身上。
为什么!这个星期将这么难过。
为什么!为什么!
也许我找不到大案,但还是不会放弃,因为我只道我可以的,只是我能撑得了吗?我受不了了。这么多的东西,这么少的时间。为什么事情就不能简单一点?we agree not because we dont care but because teh idea is alr so good le. i admit i wont be able to think of such good ideas myself too. so i admit all the ideas are fab. we are not shrinking from responsibilities. shit damn. 我要相信我可以。是的。我可以。
, 5:39 pm
someday;不是等到失去,才懂得珍惜
你明白吗?
i think JJlin rawks alot too. i like his mei ren yu. its pretty pretty nice:D
sweet too:D hahas. okay im mad:D someday is nice too. so touching luhs. like until some prt can cry lah.=.= okay. nvm the craps.
shall post more when more interesting things are happening to me. i wanan go out with shao tan later on. so hope 9am come and i could call her(:
i want go pizza hut again:D
oh and i changed skin. i know its obvious. hahas:D just tag!!! comment on skin whatever. i know the skin not nice but whateevr heck lah, i just want to change skin so i random do one. yay:D
也许到了最后一秒,
你也不知道。
你停在过去
我在未来
我们再也不会见面
我知道错了
对不起
我会试着珍惜
再见。