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Friday, December 31, 2010, 6:44 am
#318Sparks fly.
2010 is really very memorable, indeed. My last year in Nanyang, my last concert in NY Audi with my love-hated cca, my last-s spent with my last class in NY. I can't believe just 4 years ago I keep saying I hate NY and dislike the school system and just blamed everything else for my life which sort of sucked back then. I tried so hard to like fit in to what I thought is how a secondary school student should behave! Maybe that's why I can't really remember my life in sec 1. Because I don't have one apparently.
I think I'm very blessed to meet so many different people, really. Secondary 2 is seriously my turning point, I suddenly feel like I can do it, and I really did work very hard to earn a place in 301. :) And no matter how hard we always complain about EPGY, I would choose MSTP all over again even if time turns back. Maybe it's the last year in NY, everything feels closer to the heart, and matters much more.
紫韵筝情`10! :D Concerts > SYF! Especially when you're a sec4! Haha, went back to watch the montage again everyone really 辛苦了. I will remember the preparation and 在台上的悸动/激动 forever! And, I guess that's end of my guzheng life. I realize I like guzheng more as an ensemble because emotions collectively make music more moving! No matter how screwed up we may be haha. That's why I don't think I will pursue guzheng lesson in a short while.
快乐:其实就是这么简单,由小小的瞬间拼凑而成
衷心感谢出现在我生命的每一个人,每一个灵魂,
在那些漆黑的夜晚,照亮我卑微的人生:)
401`10, NYGZ`10, 203`08, 6E'06, everyone!
2011
我很怕,可是有你们陪我度过
Monday, December 27, 2010, 6:45 am
#317There's a place out there for us.
Songs are heartbreaking. When can I stop being so vulnerable to them. The year is ending but I'm not even near 释怀. I'm watching drama after drama at night to get rid of the lonely feeling, and tried laughing at the slightest funny part. Wah, really cannot listen to all those songs at night.
大崩溃
I don't know why but I suddenly feel very empty and hollow.
期待变成无奈怎么变回期待
I feel like I suddenly lost the faith I tried building inside me.
伯牙碎琴,谁又是我的知音
Ah, this feeling won't last, I believe. 旧伤 totally killed tonight :(
"等一颗遥远的心就像要星星回应许的愿望:苦苦没有回答"
Exactly who we are is just enough.