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Thursday, September 30, 2010, 6:35 am
#314Even he smiled.
Sometimes I really wonder, why we perceive people differently, and with the same actions, one can hold so much more meaning than the other. Both can be tears, but one just feel so much sadder and needs more concern. It's like the same stimulus, yet different response. Maybe the brain is unable to send nerve impulses to the heart to control the response.
为什么都是眼泪却不同重量?
Normally people say when you are faced with something far too many times, your heart get numbed of accommodating and responding to the stimulus. I wonder if our eyes ever get numbed for accommodation? At least you could close your eyes when you feel tired, but how to close a heart.
When we start all with all the "firsts", did it even occur to us that there may be all these "lasts". Tomorrow is Children's Day, and the last official lesson day in NY. I don't know how to feel, my 4 years eh.
I feel stronger! Even though I know how I may be fragile inside! Songs are still the most therapeutic, lyrics make all the illogical feelings logical! Just smile, smile at how foolish a thought is, how mean an assumption is, and how naive a naive thought is.
因为有可能笑着笑着,就会慢慢变快乐了.
After EOYS, I hope to catch a day to stay in school and watch it rain and shine all over again. Doing nothing but just sitting at the steps, and stone at the rain. And stone even more. Until everything in my heart can evaporate with it.
雨脆弱地淋下,痛却不说话,所以我也会很坚强
借来的都该 还掉
到期了-
关上门以后 就算爱你又如何?
Please remember the smile!
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Aftermath
Finally did up another blogskin after (really) almost 4 years.
And this skin alone takes me months since I began working on it.
Conceptualize/ get inspiration to format to consolidate to simplify to coding to trial and error to specific styles...
It's such a long process that it even makes me wonder am I getting too old for doing all these things?
Looking back, I used to make skins like one per day in secondary one to per week or month in secondary two/ three.
Then, somehow, all my design interest or passion goes into fan-art or icons/ banners based.
I guess I have this inherent mentality that any layout based design will drain me out, and it still does.
Then again, it may not be that I'm getting too old for this, but instead
I've raised my expectations? Too perfectionist in other words.
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Anyhow, I'm very satisfied I guess!
The only pure long holidays I would have and I did not let it to go to waste!
With the years to come, I really don't think I would have the time and peaceful mind to revisit and revamp the whole layout design once more.
So, something to take with me to university and eventually work life next time :)
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有时候回忆很可怕,它让你看到你的曾经所以对未来有梦
只愿在慌乱之中,留下这一片虚拟的记忆和画面的潇洒
这一路的赞赏和欣慰,永远不会忘
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