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Friday, August 14, 2009, 7:23 am
#301存在
扬起嘴角显示的笑容,
是掩饰心痛无法从容,
口是心非的用心良苦,
答复却这么如此残酷。
闭上眼睛听着音符,
试着让灵魂被驯服。
感觉自己踏出一步,
才发现自己在圆圈里打转-最终还是回到了原点。
存在在两人的背影里,
虽然我还有自知之明,
但是眼泪疾苦的挣扎,
退后是我最后的潇洒。
曾经被影响学会敢爱敢恨,
曾经被影响学会疗治伤痕,
曾经被影响学会笑容满面,
许多曾经如今已灰飞烟灭。
也许缘分已尽,
无法再次靠近。
故事结局怎样,
我还是不想讲。
ADD ON.
My life is so full of drama now. This is like a distant nightmare which I keep telling myself that is untrue. I hate myself to how I change and shape myself to fit into the mold available.
The laughing should stop. The tears should stop. The awkwardness should stop. The silent approach should stop. I don't think I have enough energy to approach anything anymore.
No, really I can never get over it. I should stop thinking that I could, I will, ONE DAY. Because it is true that I can be over it one day and the next day is all right back to where I start. I should stop comparing to last year, because life moves on.
I really hope I'm doing great salvaging the "to-be-lost".
yeah rightDELETE ):
mischellaneous
archives
Aftermath
Finally did up another blogskin after (really) almost 4 years.
And this skin alone takes me months since I began working on it.
Conceptualize/ get inspiration to format to consolidate to simplify to coding to trial and error to specific styles...
It's such a long process that it even makes me wonder am I getting too old for doing all these things?
Looking back, I used to make skins like one per day in secondary one to per week or month in secondary two/ three.
Then, somehow, all my design interest or passion goes into fan-art or icons/ banners based.
I guess I have this inherent mentality that any layout based design will drain me out, and it still does.
Then again, it may not be that I'm getting too old for this, but instead
I've raised my expectations? Too perfectionist in other words.
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Anyhow, I'm very satisfied I guess!
The only pure long holidays I would have and I did not let it to go to waste!
With the years to come, I really don't think I would have the time and peaceful mind to revisit and revamp the whole layout design once more.
So, something to take with me to university and eventually work life next time :)
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有时候回忆很可怕,它让你看到你的曾经所以对未来有梦
只愿在慌乱之中,留下这一片虚拟的记忆和画面的潇洒
这一路的赞赏和欣慰,永远不会忘
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