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NYGH, 301`09, NYGZ Saturday, April 30, 2011
#320Even if wishing is a waste of time,
Even if I never crossed your mind.
I read through my (long dead) tagboard just now. It started of with me wanting to delete a spam tag haha. Ohman so many years passed since the first tag in the archive and even though I never had the habit of replying tags, I do remember the context/ feeling behind each tag! Maybe it's good that it's dead, because every single tag which I treasure so far will forever be there. :)
And it's been forever since I change any details under my profile. It still has the nice little icon which I made 2 years ago haha. I used to be so good/ efficient at creating loads and loads of 100x100pixels designs whereas now I'm just happy with my monthly update of luozhixiang. Anyway, the main point is, I grow to understand why I never wanted to edit the details. Not because of laziness? Maybe subconsciously I just want everything to stay like what's in the sidebar, still in ny, still in nygz, still in 3/401. Still go for GCP. Still wear sleeveless shirts. Still walking into a CLASSROOM every morning. Still passes by the cleaner pond. Still attempting to climb the clock tower...
How can my simple, self-satisfactory life suddenly takes such a drastic turn! To become complicated, doubtful, curious? So funny to say that I'm still growing up from all these transitions because that sound so secondary school.
Waiting. Preparation. Anticipation. Gave me hope. I hope it continues doing so. And something in me tells me not to give up on 11:11. No matter how fate has disappoint me each time.
At times, I really wonder what do I want in life?
或许我最想要的
只是一个可以懂得我的你
一个不会逃脱的你
一边在泪流, 一边紧抱我
小声地说, 多么爱我
谁说要失去才会珍惜
I really grow to appreciate the strength of faith.
Even if you cannot hear my voice,
I'll be right beside you dear.
:)