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Sunday, October 14, 2007, 5:51 pm
#251"it may never be the same afterall people
do change"
last three papers results tmr. somehow i'm not that high now because im feeling bored and i think i'm seriously rotting at home pls=.= butbutbut, MOVIE WITH ZHIYUN LATER<3 at least there's something to make me occupied-.-
(: its one of those days when you totally lose your cool, its one of those other times when you just think the whole world is against you, its just one of those times when you still feel that pain inside you burning like some hot track and you couldn't bear but your tears just fell like those of the rain, its the pain when you lost something. thats the way we learn don't we? through pain and hardship, maybe thats why there's a rainbow for us to look forward too, but it doesn't matter anymore if we could find or touch that rainbow, but its just to contain that happiness you get.
tomorrow is LA marks. like ZOMG. and i'm going to hunt chengxin downn. down. down. down. LIKE OMG. SHE GOT W580i! which means i'm jealous! OHH MANN how can she get it so soon! but i will get mine soon too;D i want the black one(: and chengxin got the white one(: we will have the same phone agan;D
:D lonliness. the defination of being alone. or is it.
“当看过一场看不懂的电影，但周围的人都看得非常入神，才了解孤独是什么”
everything happens for a reason. its just whether you clearly identified the reason. lonliness, the thing that one will surely experienced when its the fame and wealth which just matters everything. its when you experiences those pains, you will grow strong. 要在最痛的地方，用最美丽的方式包扎。its just the reality world which brings us all these pain and sorrows. maybe buddhism is right.
ohh mann. ive been youtubing for so long!!! arh. and i bought the craps book! SOMETHING FOR ME TO WRITE IN! and gongyuan will write in all her hamster stuff(:
[: competition is just like sitting on the see-saw. people will go up; or down. people on the down would envy people on top, but yet they dont know people on the top is wanting and desired to be on the bottom. its just so contradicting. neevr will one undertsand each others' feelings. schools teach us to feel emphathy, but could the teachers they do that themselves? no dear. its the reality. fairytales really don't exist. but miracles do. we would make miracles happen.
you know its just that little thing you feel. only you know how you feel. it would not be the same. afterall, all of us are unique. yeah. maybe its time for the truth.
hold your breathe and it would be over soon.
trust me one more time.
