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Saturday, February 10, 2007, 10:12 pm
stupid lahh. do parents understand how we ur children tink. i know we acting some sort of rebellious. but heyy, i tot u all went through the same cycle, n y don u understand n come here to spoil my life. im already all-so-fed-up tat 6e blog cant wrk out properly. i spent hours ytd to do it. i wld cry at the breakdown kz? yet u came in n say: wat does msn n bloggin brings to u? omg, u r controlling me like those days in psle eh. i need freedom kz? tats y i hate sundays. cz u all r at home. im nt saying i hate my parents, but u c, y cant u all understand hw i tink. i don care. 6e blog cant wrk out n im really going 2 cry. sianz. im already sick of sec sch yet u r here blabbering on abt my freedom in things. to go out is easy, but i always gt a scolding when im back. for wad? yea, i nvr take gd care of sis. yea, i need to tks my sis for all the scoldings eh. i shld have gone out nw. stayin @ home with my dad n listenin 2 him complain? i cant stand it okay. i donno y i gt all this emo n sad after comin 2 nygh. u have manipulated my life once okay? i m forced. i oni see regrets now. u noe hw i feel when i see all those other sch ppl tgt? u wont know, cz u nvr went through the pain im sufferin right nw. yea, so wad if nygh is top schs. i don care u c. yet when i gt 269, u just barge in2 my life, and force me 2 change my decision. y cant i just be a happy dunmanian till 2day? i shldnt have gave up the chance. now i don even noe and 4gt when i gave up the chance. how wld i be so stupid, nygh looks gd on the outside, but once u gt in2 it, u will tink twice. i cannt withstand so much. finally knows wats sec sch rebellious stage eh? y do children become liddat? cz of PARENTS. y did youngsters go out n fight n gt caught? is tat smth abt his relationship with family. parents 2 be specific. do nt blame tat we r rebellious kkz? parentsmust aso tink thu rite? as if itz all our fault. n everyth tats wrong is MY fault. n blame me 4 nt doing chores @ such big age liaos. heyys, washin my own uniforms and socks, and takin care of myself n nt spendin a single cent more frm u for tution, nt chores isit? im gttin sick of facing all of u day by day. i donno wat 2 say n wat 2 do. i don care anymore. im allready tired. who wanna contiue the race of life for mie? i lost all my confidence all the sudden. whr is keyu? i donno. sch n family... i donno now. lets just me all the best.okay feelin better now. JIAYOU KEYU
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Aftermath
Finally did up another blogskin after (really) almost 4 years.
And this skin alone takes me months since I began working on it.
Conceptualize/ get inspiration to format to consolidate to simplify to coding to trial and error to specific styles...
It's such a long process that it even makes me wonder am I getting too old for doing all these things?
Looking back, I used to make skins like one per day in secondary one to per week or month in secondary two/ three.
Then, somehow, all my design interest or passion goes into fan-art or icons/ banners based.
I guess I have this inherent mentality that any layout based design will drain me out, and it still does.
Then again, it may not be that I'm getting too old for this, but instead
I've raised my expectations? Too perfectionist in other words.
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Anyhow, I'm very satisfied I guess!
The only pure long holidays I would have and I did not let it to go to waste!
With the years to come, I really don't think I would have the time and peaceful mind to revisit and revamp the whole layout design once more.
So, something to take with me to university and eventually work life next time :)
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有时候回忆很可怕，它让你看到你的曾经所以对未来有梦
只愿在慌乱之中，留下这一片虚拟的记忆和画面的潇洒
这一路的赞赏和欣慰，永远不会忘
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